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Though I said something about our Institute, it did not disturb
me. Certain other cares and thoughts came to my mind but
then easily left me. I went to bed happily though I had felt my
usual aches and pains more than ever during the day; it
seemed to me that if death came to me in the night, the Lord
would have been merciful to me.

Day 2 - 24 September

I got up from bed with a cheerful heart though I had
slept very little over the night. By God’s grace I gladly resumed
my Spiritual Exercises. I was very happy to receive Holy
Communion but my heart was strangely cold. However, Our
Lord is always so kind to me: he made me remain calm and
quiet, and I felt the Lord urging me to abandon myself totally in

his arms and let him do everything even for the Institute itself
because the humblest instruments are the very ones he uses
to carry out His designs with. I felt he was encouraging me to
proceed with this undertaking and take heart; to let him do
everything himself: all I had to do was to remove all obstacles
and follow him blindly.

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