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Resolutions: To make up my mind to make amends in
these three defective areas, and to think often of death,
especially in my actions, that is: by doing everything in a way
that would make me face death quite happily.

I did this Meditation walking about, for a little more than
half-an-hour. I had a few distractions, but the time passed
almost without my noticing it.

I heartily thank God who has assisted me throughout
this day. I have committed a few defects, but I hope they were
not deliberate. God has granted me fervour in all my actions,
with inner tranquillity as well. Everything comes from Him as a
gift. I pray He may do the same with me tomorrow, though I do
not deserve it.

FOURTH MEDITATION Night-time. On the particular
Judgement. My God, how many accusations will be made in
that terrible Judgement! Countless accusations from the devil:
he will bring out so many sins I had not even thought of nor
worried about, things I had considered harmless. And my poor

Guardian Angel will be so displeased! He will present the tiny
book with my good deeds and with it so many accusations he
too will have to make! He will let me know of inspirations
prompted by him but ignored by me, of remorse he had put in
my heart but which I paid no heed to. He will let me know how
many times he had to take his eyes off me so as not to see so
many sins: what shall I have to say then? I will be so
ashamed, so confused! But my greatest fear will be that of

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