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out, sins I don’t even remember, what a bitter reproof for so
many graces granted me but badly used by me! He will
confront me with all my deeds, good in themselves but done
out of human respect or pride, in order to shine and gain the
esteem of others. If I were to hear the words ‘I do not know
you!’, and see for the first time the face of my God so
indignant, how dreadful, how terrifying! ... but more than
anything else, what a terrible thing it would be! I have therefore
understood how important it is to act with the right intention, for
God’s sake alone and for His glory since sooner or later I will
have to be examined by a just Judge, and unless I myself am
honest, I will be reproved and condemned by him.
Resolutions: To act always with the right intention and
never to do anything, however tiny, that I know will be
displeasing to God.
I did this Meditation on my knees, in church, for about an
hour. I had few distractions and some fervour; I did not lose

my trust in God.
At my Holy Communion the Lord seemed to be telling
me that he wants me to be a Saint, a great saint, and that I
must not waste a single moment, even, because I don’t have
much time left to live. I heard the voice of my Spouse putting
new life in me, urging me to go on tirelessly, to go by the hard,
narrow path, to subject myself to everyone, to work hard, very
hard, and that in Heaven I will see how precious all this is. In this
Communion I begged the Lord to let me know if I have to keep up
my vows because at times I feel them as a heavy burden, fearing
that if I neglect them they will serve to condemn me even more

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