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and to keep death always in mind, because it may happen that
at the very moment that I forget all about it, God calls me to
himself.

Resolutions: Not to live even for a single instant in sin,
not even venial sin, by making at least an act of contrition, and
to remember very frequently that I have to die.
This Meditation took me little more than half-an-hour; I
did it partly on my knees and partly sitting down. I had very few
distractions but I found it rather arid.

SECOND MEDITATION

On the particular Judgement

In this Meditation I was scared to think of all the
accusations that the devil could make to my soul before the
judgement seat of God: I realized I would be at a loss what to
say in answer. But even more confused I was when I began to
think what my Guardian Angel would have to say against my
soul, since he has witnessed so many inspirations, moments
of light and particular graces the Lord has granted me, so
many Sacraments badly received, so many gifts misused; I
would not find anything to say for myself in answer to his
accusations, either, these being all very true. But more than
anything else I dread the scrutiny that Jesus Christ will carry

out, no more as a Spouse but as a severe Judge, since he
knows the secrets of my heart. How many sins he will bring

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