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Getting lost would make of me another Judas since the Lord
has showered countless graces on me...
I have had a great desire to profit from the grace of
these Spiritual Exercises and through it to lead a better life. I
was strengthened by the thought that God loves me still and is
in fact just now favouring me with his graces.

Resolutions: To value all the graces the Lord will give

me, no matter how tiny they may be, and day by day to make
progress in serving the Lord.
I did this Meditation for half-an-hour on my knees, in
church, and half-an-hour walking about in the house. I had few
distractions and some fervent feelings.

Day 1. 21 September

FIRST MEDITATION - Night-time

On Death

I considered how: death is sure to come, at an uncertain
time, and only once. What struck me most was the thought

that since I do not know when I have to die, I could easily die
when I am cold or lukewarm in God’s service, when I am
committing some fault. Should this happen, what would
become of me? ... I was also impressed by the thought that I
die only once; and so if I am not prepared, if my conscience is
not right at that moment, that would be the end of me. I have
therefore realized the necessity of being prepared all the time

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