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burden, especially when I think of the endless obligations and
duties I have towards it, to the extent of almost feeling
oppressed by it. On the other hand the Lord is so good and
merciful that he helps me almost in a tangible way, and I
realize that He is doing everything himself. And yet so often, or
rather all the time, my pride sets itself against Him and
because of that He is forced to keep from me so many graces,
however much he wishes to grant them to me, and so I make
endless mistakes. All the same, on Monday, by the grace of
God and for His glory, I will resume classes. I ask you,
Reverend Father, to grant me the merit of obedience in all that
I will do in it, down to the tiniest action, so that the Lord himself
may assist me. I earnestly commend myself to your Prayer.
Today I have said enough to tire you out for three
months on this letter, but maybe three hours will not pass
before I tire you again. Be patient with me, I beg of you.
I pay my humble respects to you and ask your holy

Blessing. I end with an earnest request to put my head under
the feet of everyone and keep me down, down.

Lovere, 9 April (1831).

Your devoted humble Daughter in J. C.
The Unworthy Handmaid of Jesus and of Mary

To Very Reverend Father
DON ANGELO BOSIO
To be delivered in his hands LOVERE.

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