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Be assured that the Lord has chosen you, Reverend Father,
as one of the main instruments for His work, and almost
without your realizing it, he himself made the promise contained
in the very words you uttered.
The undertaking is as great and important as it could be. God
certainly wants it. So many needs that there are call for it most
eagerly.
Be sure that God is in you and with you, and every time you
speak, think, do anything or suffer anything for this
Undertaking, he will grant you some special grace, and in
Heaven He will be your greatest Crown.
After what you told me about the matter on Thursday, I
had some uneasiness about what you told me to write etc.
Allow me to confess to you all my pride, if I can.
I can clearly see that all I do, think or write, everything is
always tainted by my ugly pride and is spoiled by it.
I therefore feel within myself that for the good of the Institute,

and not to be an obstacle to what the Lord wants to do about
it, I had better not meddle in His affairs, never say anything nor
ask anything, nor even think of it, but simply pray the Lord to
make me worthy, for charity’s sake, not to exclude me from the
number of His Handmaids; thus, I will then remain in holy
indifference waiting till He opens the door for me.
On the other hand I have an inner urge to obey blindly, and
several times I felt driven to write something of what you
commanded me, but my pride is too great.
You already know of it, to some extent, since I turn to you (for

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