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pleased with the idea that she should join some Convent
immediately. If, when she comes back to town, she has the
same yearning, I beg you for charity’s sake to let her go gladly,
lest you should leave her with a nagging pain in her heart. It
will be a sign that we are not worthy to have such a great joy.
If we make her wait against her will, for a long time, maybe,
and then put her in a new sort of Retreat where there will
certainly be great obstacles to overcome, I would also fear that
she may not find the joy, quiet and sense of security that she
desires and longs for so ardently.
If the Lord wants her in the new Institute, he will lessen her
great eagerness to go at once, and little by little he will draw
her to the holy Institute. But I am just talking foolishly. May the
Lord let you know what He wills in this matter. I would be only
too happy if she were to be one of the first stones of such a
holy Edifice.
The Lord has restored my former peace of mind: it is a

pure token of his great mercy, and I thank him with all my
heart, because a single day of dejection weighs more heavily
on me than a hundred pains and aches. May He grant me the
grace to love Him immensely and serve Him faithfully, for that
is all I seek.
I earnestly recommend my poor School to you. For
charity’s sake help me with your advice and warning that I may
not go against God’s designs. Keep shaking me out of my
laziness, put me right when I am thoughtless, instruct me in
my ignorance, be a support to me, the weakest instrument of
God’s designs. On the one hand the School is a very heavy

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