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what the Lord wants from you». And my continual resistance
to the calls and graces of the Lord, I seriously fear, may be
hindering what He would like to do to establish the Institute. I
will do my best to make myself less unworthy of such an
exceptional grace, but if my sinfulness is in the way, I beg you,
my Jesus, punish me but let the Institute prosper. I beg you,
Reverend Father, drive me on with stick in hand, because I am
an ass that will not move a step unless pricked with a goad.
Let us firmly hope the Lord will graciously comfort those
who pray to Him. The Holy Spirit will bring some gift from
Heaven that will cheer our hearts – I ardently desire to kiss
those walls that will be the House of the Lord – I desire to find
my refuge in it – I desire to please my Jesus – I desire to bury
myself to the world and to myself – I desire to do what God
expects from me.
I earnestly beg you to commend me to God. May the
Holy Spirit sanctify your promise, Reverend Father, that you

don’t want ever to give up working and striving till the Institute
is founded; may He continue to keep you working till it is
completed to perfection. With profound respect and grateful
thanks I have the honour to be

Just now, 15 May (1831).

Your devoted humble Daughter in J. C.
The Unworthy Handmaid of Jesus and of Mary

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