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Finding myself with a group of younger girls I behaved as if I
were their Superior, expecting them to adjust to my will.

Monday 28

I brought up reasons to prove myself right in a certain
matter. I excused myself. When someone observed that
yesterday in church I moved about, I gave reasons to justify
my behaviour. I wished a certain person to know of a thing I
had done. I was anxious to write a fair copy of a paper
because it had to be seen by various girls.

Tuesday 29

I said many words in praise of myself, and many others
with feigned humility. I complied with the will of others much
against my will. Though I felt no devotion inside, I tried to look
very devout not to cut a bad figure. I rated myself very highly,
considering myself very kind.

Wednesday 30

I fancied that the Nuns will sing worse because I am not
there to help them. I said many words in praise of myself. I

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