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It almost hurt my feelings when I was asked if I was more
virtuous than my sister. I excused myself. I felt as if I had done
a big thing because I had gladly done something against my
own will.
Thursday 28
I have been very negligent in noting down these
thoughts: for thirteen days I did not write them, but I still
remember a few of them. I said to myself: If they knew what I
do! Twice or three times I said various words that may have
indicated humility but which were really pride.
Friday 29
I had thoughts of high regard for myself. I was gratified
at telling one thing to a friend, though it was not in praise of
myself. I said some words in praise of myself, and I was
pleased to hear others praising me though I knew they did it to
flatter me.
Saturday 30
Several times there came to mind a thing said in
appreciation of me. I felt important because a certain person
was courteous to me. I was not displeased to hear others
praising me though I did not deserve it. The thought came to
me that by observing the month of May with a few girls, I
would have the appreciation of many.
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