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Friday 4

I did not feel like writing these thoughts. Besides being
reluctant I was also negligent: in fact, I left two days pass by
without noting them down and so I cannot remember them
now.

Saturday 5

In Church I was devout more on the outside than inside.
For my own satisfaction I said it was I that had done a certain
thing, when they were praising it. I excused myself. In my
conversation I said words in praise of myself. I was tempted
not to show this paper to my Confessor if he does not ask for
it.

Sunday 6

I was sorry to come out of the church early just because
others might notice it and find fault. I wanted to have my way
in an argument. I considered myself good at a certain thing.
When a respectable person treated me with courteous
manners I spoke of it with another person so that she may
know that I am treated well by highly-respected persons as
well.

Monday 7

I excused myself in a certain matter. I was several times
tempted to cancel a thought of pride written on this paper

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