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Friday 11
I was a bit rough in my talk in dealing with the girls. I
considered myself more virtuous than another person because
she cannot handle an initiative of piety. I was gratified at being
observed by a man while I was carrying out an act of kindness.
Saturday 12
I imagined that the change for the better that has come
about in a certain girl will be attributed by others to her
friendship with me. I took delight in a thing I had done because
it seemed to me very well done and worthy of some praise. On
hearing that a certain person is very affectionate to another
because of her goodness-of-heart, I supposed that she would
love me and consider me equally good, if I too were close to
her.
Sunday 13
I was sick that day, and so I did not feel like writing. For
the next eight days I was in bed, unable to write anything.
From Monday till Saturday I could not write either, partly
because I didn’t feel like it, partly for sheer laziness and partly
for pride, as it seemed to me a good excuse for keeping my
defects to myself.
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