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In  the  end  you  will  be  happy  about  it».  As  far  as  I  am
               concerned, I know only too well that it serves me right that you
               leave,  since  I  have  responded  so  poorly  to  your  fervent
               exhortations and to the concern that you have for my spiritual
               good.  However,  I  have  promised  God  that  if  he  hears  my
               prayer  I  will  respond  much  better  in  future. What  if  the  Lord
               through this cross is expecting something from you too? ...
                     I beg you not to mind my boldness which, I admit, is far
               too much, but if you have indeed to blame me for it, you must
               also blame your humility that makes me have the courage.
                     To tell you the truth, I greatly fear that you may be about
               to fall in some serious illness, and so I earnestly beg you to be
               calm and not worry so much.
               Leave everything to God, and He will make you happy. He is
               so good that He will never abandon those who serve Him, and
               with more reason those who seek to do His will. Besides, God
               will not reject the prayers that so many people are offering to

               him over this matter.
                     On my part I have also told the girls of the Sodality of St
               Aloysius to pray hard for this purpose, without telling them the
               exact reason, and their fervour is such that it makes me hope
               that God will hear their supplications.
               Finally, in one way or another, God  is bound  to comfort you
               and all those who are most hard hit by this blow.
               Now I must beg you to forgive the liberty I have taken to write
               in this manner. I myself realize that I have done a thing that
               does not concern me at all, but I would like you to know my





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