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away, nor do I dare ask for death, which I would gladly seek,
for fear of facing something worse. I deserve the worst, I admit,
but the grace not to offend my God but to love him greatly is
something my good Jesus must not deny me. In the midst of my
fears, I must tell you, my most gentle Mamma Mary is a great
source of comfort for me. For some days now deep down in my
heart, I have felt her gentle reproof for my lack of trust and love
for her. At this moment an unusual sense of tenderness and
confidence has come over me, encouraging me to hope
anything and everything from such a good Mother, and her very
name on my lips gladdens my heart. Oh Mary, Mary, in your
loving kindness save me ... Another thing I cannot keep from
you is this: my heart seems to be telling me that Mary wishes to
be your trusted Companion in the forthcoming Mission you are
about to preach. She has purposely brought it about that for
some days you will be left without a Companion-preacher, to
make you experience how effective is Her assistance. Have
great trust in Her, and your Mission will be most fruitful. I give
you my humble regards and beg you to commend me to God.
However, before I end this letter, I ask you to accept the sincere
thanks I render to you once more for your immense charity
1
towards our Oratorio . I assure you that Mary has been very
pleased with what you have done; indeed, I am sure that the
extraordinary fruits of the holy preached Missions at Cividate
were obtained through Mary’s intercession as a reward for your
kindness to Her Daughters. However, I cannot for my part fail to
thank you most sincerely and assure you that I will always be

1 See footnote pg 55.

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