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As soon as I received Jesus in my heart, I started
recommending the whole matter to him, and this thought
struck me: «Tell him to accept God’s will totally, and that he
should prepare to go at his Superior’s command; and then -
who knows - God may do as he did with Abraham, just be
satisfied with his good will and leave him at peace».
Then I thought I could pray fervently the Holy Spirit to
enlighten the Bishop that he may discern God’s will aright and
at the same time bring to his mind another person fit for the
task. This thought cheered me somewhat, because it had
come to me unexpectedly, and it seemed to me that God was
pleased to hear me. I therefore did my best to get as many
devout people as possible to pray, as a result of which I now
owe a good number of holy Communions because I had to
promise them I would do the same for them if I obtained the
grace I sought. On my part, I did not neglect to pray hard to
the Lord, my gentle ‘Mamma’ (Mother Mary) and also my dear
St Aloysius. I can assure you that I seem to have prayed truly,
and from my heart: I say this because at times it happens that
I pray for some grace but my heart is not really in it, for I feel
that if I prayed from my heart, the Lord would hear me; but
even if I tried very hard, I cannot pray with my heart but only
with the lips, and so I obtain nothing.
But this time it was not like that. It really seems to me (unless I
am mistaken) that I prayed more with my heart than with my
lips. During my Communion this morning I had the same
thoughts as yesterday’s, and this evening, when I heard that
the Parish Priest had gone to Brescia, being sure it must have
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